Goodbye 2011

I can’t stop fucking thinking about you and it’s killing me inside. Luke was able to make me forget about you when we were living together but now, I don’t care. All I can do is think about you over and over and all I want is to forget you. My resolution this year isn’t what it usually is. All I want is to forget you. I hate loving you this much. I’ll repeat myself again I would NEVER marry someone if I didnt feel like this. All I did this year was act reckless, but I had the time of my life. Goodbye 2011. 2012, it’s time to think about yourself. I’m finishing my school. I start school in 8 days. I don’t care about having a love life, if it happens, well it happens. All I want is my education and to better myself. Be the best that I know I can be. I’ve done and have gone through so much this year, thanks to Alaska, I know what I am capable of. I’m not the timid girl I use to be. I’m so much more but I need to be serious. I need to grow up and not be all talk. I will do what I want in my life and enjoy it. This is for the better and everything did happen for a reason, sure it’s going to take time to get over the man I married and failing at my marriage, but I know I am young and I rushed into something. Maybe it was all in my head the idea of a happily ever after but I will have all my dreams come true I promise you this whether you’re in my life or not. I swear I will do anything, whatever it takes to be who I know I can be.